Friday, June 3, 2011
12:52 AM
Took a few days off the social network to focus on my studies. At this point I'm still up to schedule but I feel like I'm not working hard enough. I kept getting distracted. I've planned for the whole of next week just for Maths but I don't think it's still gonna be enough time. I've been studying Japanese these few days. It's hell memorising all the vocabulary words and grammatical rules. I still have kanji left to learn but I should be good now. I'm going to start engineering tomorrow.
I wanna do well but I'm not motivated enough to study really really hard. I guess it's the lack of competition. Not that there isn't any, but I just don't know where the competition is. So right now I am my biggest competition.
Just thinking of all the money my mum and dad is giving me for my education and life here is killing me. It's a lot of money and the last thing I wanna do is let the money go to waste. I don't wanna disappoint them. And because of that... I have to study. Study study study.
Ganbatte!

